Growing up, I was the type of girl who never really cared about what other people thought about me. I was free from all of society's unpleasant expectations. I embodied my true being. I let my personality shine bright. My soul is what led me, not other people. I wasn't scared nor did I let anything or anyone hold me back. I guess this was before society and social media corrupted my mind. It seems as though this is how everyone starts out. As children, we knew that anything was possible. We had big dreams and we knew they were going to come true. We never wondered whether or not we were good enough for other people. We were free.
Now it wasn't until high school when I began to realize that people could be very judgmental. And that's when my insecurities started to emerge. I started to conform to others in order to fit a certain mold. My insecurities obstructed my one of a kind charisma.
Who was I?
Had i become a puppet?
Was I under the control of everyone around me?
And don't get me started on social media. Today, we now have an abundance of free (but not really free because we are spending all of our time on them) social media apps at our fingertips (literally) causing us to be so immersed into others' lives, that we have no other choice but to compare ourselves, leaving us feeling empty and often times questioning ourselves. I can admit that this was (I use this word lightly as I sometimes find myself starting to feel empty if I'm spending too much time on social media, which is why I make sure to limit myself) me.
Not going to lie, it took me a while, but I've learned to stop caring about what other people think about me. I took scissors and I cut the strings that had me confined. I am free. At the end of the day, it is your life and you only have one. If you spend all your time worrying about what other people are going to say or think, you're going to miss out on so many opportunities and discoveries. I was watching a video of one of my favorites, Taraji P. Henson, and she spoke these words that really resonated with me, "You can't give another human the responsibility of your happiness." Go after your dreams fearlessly. Life has so much to offer. Don't let others be the reason you don't LIVE.
If you liked this blog post, check out my short film Abstractions. It is about how often times we give into societal “norms” in order to be accepted by "everyone", which causes us to put on a facade and ultimately we begin to lose our true identity because we are so caught up in this false reality. Enjoy ☺️